Episode 389

Hello, and welcome to Unshakable with Human Design, everybody. I’m your host, Nicole Laino, and. And I am here with one of my favorite people, Ms. Christina Luna. I’ve just come to love these episodes so much. Our transit episode. I look forward to recording them with you every month. I love talking to you, but I feel like it’s such a touch point for me. And they’ve become some of our most popular episodes. So welcome for the July one, Christina. 

Thank you. And I was just before you hit record, I was thinking, oh, my gosh, I wish were recording that entire conversation. It is such a personal and vulnerable time. This episode is happening. We’re recording it in such a deeply emotional and vulnerable moment. We’ve got. We’ve got our feels right on our sleeves, and it’s designed to be that way. If not now, then when? I mean, we have these windows of time when life is showing us the value of openness and vulnerability, the value of being a human who experiences emotions. I mean, I like to say that cancer season is what gives us our emotional wisdom. We go through things during cancer season that help to grow our emotional wisdom so that we can create more confidently and courageously in Leo season. 

Yeah, I’ve absolutely been feeling that. We were discussing it before we hit record. Christine and I were just having a little chat, and I was sharing that, you know, June has been a really difficult month for me. It has been challenging for me, and I’m trying to meet it with as much grace as possible. But sometimes you just need to ugly cry alone in a room. And there’s. Sometimes there’s a reason, like, I’ve shared on the show that kind of everything that could go wrong in June, it feels like, did there have been some wonderful moments? But every single wonderful moment was also met with like, oh, my God, how is this also happening right now? And it’s been a challenge. You know, the evolved part of me is like, okay, we’ll stick with, you know, like, do the work and everything. 

And the human part of me is like, it’s not fair. And I think I’ve been being challenged to just to go inward and reflect and really take notice, to not get swept up in it all, which I Think is what. You know, I went back and listened to our June episode of the Transits. I wanted to hear what you had to say. I went and listened to my. You do those beautiful quarterly readings for us. I went back and listened to that for me, because I wanted to understand what was happening. That’s part of the frequency, like, what’s going on cosmically. That is maybe what’s being stirred up for me right now. And, you know, I’m a Virgo sun, Scorpio rising, Scorpio moon. I’m a feeler to begin with. You know, I have these kind of two opposing things, two very strong archetypes. 

But also, you know, one of them just wants everything to be orderly and perfect and do the right thing. Step by step is followed, and the payoff comes. And the Scorpio is like, oh, no, babe. No, no, no. And I was saying to you before we started that I know I’m in a growth phase, but it doesn’t necessarily mean that’s comfortable. In fact, I have a note on my computer, literally, that says, remember, growth feels like shit. Just to remind myself if I forget, because when we’re being stretched, it’s uncomfortable. And to me, every single growth phase for me, every time I’ve really leveled up, I’ve been challenged to go really deep. I’ve been challenged to go inside and feel and to really say, like, how much have you really let go of this? How much do you really trust in this? 

How much have you really allowed yourself to feel this? And I think I’m just being called to that now. And usually it has to do with, like, painful stuff. Usually it has to do with, like, things, you know, letting go and dealing with how uncomfortable that can be. And, yeah, it’s been a ride. I’m okay. I know that. I can handle it. But it doesn’t mean that I’m not human. And I’m not having days where I’m like, this sucks, and I don’t like it, and I don’t want it to be like this. And I did notice. One thing I did notice was for human design. We had it this morning, too, because the moon was in the 12th gate, but the south node is in gate 22. 

And we had the sun transiting gate 12 in June and for, like, a week was super emotional, like, manic depressive kind of emotional. And I thought about it, and I was like, wait, it’s in the transits. We all had a really emotional channel, which can get really dark. And I thank God I Knew that because at least it gave me that feeling to know it’s temporary. At least some of this is not fully mine. I’m being called to feel right now. I feel this. But there’s something comforting to know. Oh, the things that I am thinking this is about, it might not be about. And everybody, whenever we have emotion, you know, if you’re an emotional authority, which you and I both are, you, we have to wait. 

And the reason we wait is because in those moments where it feels so bad and it feels so real, it’s actually just our emotional wave sometimes making the darkening. The glasses that we’re wearing, that we’re looking at the world through this, you know, grimy lens, and we’re thinking it all needs to be changed. But it’s really something internally that we are experiencing that’s chemical. And if we just wait, we’ll realize, oh, it actually isn’t as dirty and disgusting out there as we thought. It was just the emotional place were in that was making it look really bad. So that was something I was grateful for knowing with these episodes and with what we do. Just knowing that, like, oh, maybe this isn’t me, or it’s not all me, these things are still happening, but maybe it isn’t as dire and awful as it feels. 

Currently, you are par for the course. 

For the last few weeks. Yeah, yeah. 

I want to share a little bit about the archetype of cancer from the perspective that I see it. And we’re talking about water signs. There’s water happening here. There’s a lot going on right now in so many different arenas. But let me kind of put this into context because it’s a very human time. So let’s get, like, superhuman about this. If we think about Pisces is like the cosmic mother. And when we are souls and we’re choosing a path, we’re understanding that coming into a form, coming into a life, there’s pure potential. All paths are valid. Every single experience is valid, no matter what. Time, space, incarnation, culture. Like, whatever we choose is part of the soul’s evolution. And Pisces literally has no judgment as to how any of that potential plays out. 

And so it’s considered the cosmic mother because it’s the place where all potential can be birthed. But then we choose a body, we come into form, and it’s all exciting. We’re born through Aries. We get our roots and our needs and our physicality through Taurus. We start developing the mind and we think and we have concepts in Gemini. And then cancer is the first sign where we can actually hurt our own feelings with our thoughts, with our ideas, with our beliefs, we can begin hurting our own feelings. And it’s where we know enough to know that we are mortal. That pain is going to happen. When I’m describing this in people’s charts, I say this is the moment where the archetypal mother is holding you and you’re a little baby and she says, oh, honey, life is going to be hard. 

You’re going to get hurt, you’re going to fall down, people will be mean, things won’t go the way you hoped. All of this terrible stuff’s going to happen to you. And no matter what, I’ll love you the best I can. But I’m a human mother and I’m going to make mistakes too. And I won’t be able to meet all your needs and I won’t always be the never ending cosmic mother that you need. So you’re going to have wounds and they’re going to be embedded deep in your memory and we’re going to create your origin story through all of this pain that is foreign to a soul but so native to the human experience. And you’re going to incubate that and you’re going to create a life that through Leo. And you’re going to think that you’re doing it right in Virgo. 

And then you’re going to find someone to play out and unlock all your subconscious patterns in Libra, and then you’re going to feel it all in Scorpio. Scorpio is going to open it all up. It’s going to show you how you were never separate and alone to begin with. That every single person is a reflection of some unconscious pattern within you. Whether you love it or you hate it, you get to be with it. You’re going to be bound to it. You will not have power against it’s going to have power over you. You’re going to be dependent on it. Whether you project that onto a lover, the society that you live in, your circumstances at home, whatever you project that power onto, you’re going to be transformed through the water of Scorpio. 

And it’s going to remind you of your origins and everything that you cultivate an emotional trigger around in cancer season. And then you’ll take that wisdom out into the world and advocate for wholeness. You’ll bring that home into Pisces eventually as you move through Sagittarius Aquarius or Capricorn Aquarius. I’m Skipping, missing one of those primary things. But the point is, we’re in cancer season now, so our origin story is being triggered. It’s a good time to get into the roots of what made us sad when were babies. How did our parents fail us? How can we forgive them for being human? So today, specifically as we’re recording this, which is the 24th of June, Jupiter and the sun are together in this place of cancer. And Jupiter hasn’t been here for 12 years. 

So once every 12 years, we get kind of ripped open to how vulnerable we actually are. And so you can look back in 12 year increments to see what was happening 12 years ago. What was a continuation of that story? What was the origin story that started 12 years ago that I am revisiting or closing down or healing from now? How is this different after 12 years of evolution? How am I navigating that differently? I think it was 2013. I’m pretty sure it was June to July, June of 2013 to July of 2014 that we had Jupiter in cancer. So that period of time set some kind of emotional foundation that we are revisiting now. And a lot has happened in the last 12 years. So much. 

That was a very crazy time in my life. I had just moved to Los Angeles, so it was like, it was a huge shift for me. Left corporate, moved to Los Angeles, like just that whole upheaval. And now that you mention it, that was when I started meditating because I felt so emotionally wrecked. Like, I felt so disoriented and my thoughts were racing. I knew I needed to quiet myself. And I remember it was probably that summer that I went and learned transcendental meditation. I’ve been doing it ever since. But, like, it’s so interesting to go back to these things. I still do it today, but I did it this morning. But it’s so interesting to look at these timelines like that and say, like, oh, well, this is the last time this happened was in 2013 or 2014. 

What was happening in your life back then? Like, you listening to this show right now, what were you doing in 2013? What was different in your life? What did you feel like you were being called to? For me, I felt like that was the first call to this evolution that I’m now in. And now I feel like I was saying to you earlier that I feel like I’m being called to the next. And I just did an episode on this too, where it’s like being in the middle, where you’re in between who you’ve always been, but you’re not quite who you’re becoming yet. And you’re in this middle period of the vision hasn’t totally taken shape yet. I don’t know exactly where it’s all heading or what it’s all going to look like. Is it going to look radically different? I don’t know. 

But I just know that there’s change that’s coming, and we want it to come fast and be like, you know, I want to know what the end of the movie is. But then again, we don’t, because then it ruins the story. 

I’ve been having that experience a lot lately, in fact, like. Well, I have two things to say quickly. In 2013, I was also in a new home in a new environment. And that was also when I began my path with the South American medicine wheel. And I was taken under the wing of my teacher, and we started going into really deep emotional, spiritual, multidimensional teachings. It was so vulnerable. But it was the first time I actually was starting to feel like I could come into my humanity because I feel like I’m lived, existed in a bubble above my life up until that point. And so now we’ve got these 12 years where both of us have really used those tools and landed, and we’re in a space of service in the way that we are. 

And so I also feel that there’s this next level that’s evolving from here. We’re at the beginning, fertile stages. We’re looking to the sky and we’re saying, okay, if I’m going to be here, if I’m going to truly be in this human experience, I’m on my knees, I’m surrendering. I’m saying, yes, and let’s make the best of it. And that’s ultimately the greatest growth that we can come to in Cancer season. To be humble enough to understand that as humans, we are mortal, we are subject to things beyond our control. How do we just say yes and decide to be here anyway? 

Yeah. 

And then there was another thing. Oh, this is a tiny detail that I think everyone can find really valuable. Something that I learned during that time was to create an altar in our space for all the experiences to exist and be acceptable. And I was thinking about, like, partially, why do I feel like I’m in a high level of harmony with my emotions this season rather than feeling dysregulated like I usually do? Because usually this is a very difficult time for me. And I very actively created an altar. And when I’m saying created an altar, I’ve actively chosen to watch Game of Thrones, chosen to rewatch that because there’s so much war and death and murder and betrayal and turmoil that happens. There’s so much drama that happens in that show. In some ways, by honoring that’s a craving I have in my soul. 

It’s a craving of fear. I have a fearful craving inside of me for destruction and chaos. And I acknowledge that I have that. And by actively choosing to watch that and put it on altar of my television, not to worship it, but to give it a safe space to play out, I believe that I’m freeing my psyche from having to work that out on the inside. And so this is a permission slip if there’s any kind of craving, fearful craving. We’re so afraid these days to indulge our fearful cravings because we’re so afraid. We’re afraid that if we indulge it’ll attract it. But understanding that we can’t resist, what we resist actually is what we experience more, what we judge is what we experience more. 

So often the sensation of pushing something away is what attracts it to us stronger because we’re ultimately made up of all things. And so if we try to push any one thing away, it creates a magnetic pull for it. So we create these altars so that they no longer have power over us as we resist them on the inside. 

It’s funny. I didn’t intentionally do this. What I did intentionally do, I am a science fiction nerd, which people don’t really know about me. I love, like, epic kind of Dune and Star wars and all of these kind of movies and trilogies. And I love Lord of the Rings, so, like, fantasy kind of stuff. I was obsessed with Game of Thrones, read all the books, so I chose to go back and read. I’m reading Dune Messiah right now. So I didn’t consciously choose it. Like, I want to create an altar for these feelings, but that’s basically. It’s a Game of Thrones thing. I think it’s interesting. What I intuitively chose was a book about what it really means for us to idolize people and to blindly follow and to not pay attention to what they are really doing. 

And even the people we turn into gods fall. And that’s all the things I’ve been feeling right now. I’ve been very disturbed by the things happening in the world right now. My heart hurts. And I am both hopeful and fearful at the same time. You know, I have to hold that something. Something good will come, but also at the same time being very concerned about the things that are happening and feeling a bit helpless at times when you feel like you’re very small. So what I told myself was, I’m not gonna read, like, a business book. I’m gonna enjoy. But what I chose was something like, as I started reading it, I’m like, it’s so interesting how I chose a book that is about even you talking about the water signs. 

There’s something in Dune, the Water of Life, which, when you drink or ingest the water of Life, one, you might die, but two, it takes you back to all the pain through all of your ancestors and, like, through to the beginning of time. All of the pain of your lineage. You feel it all, and you become it all. I am myself and I am all the mothers before me. That’s a huge theme throughout the book. So it’s been very interesting that is what I pulled off the shelf. I was like, I’m going to read Dune where I’m going to kind of immerse myself in these. So maybe I unintentionally created an altar in that respect. 

Absolutely. I think that the wisdom of what we’re craving and called to, it’s probably the wisest parts of us. Our cravings are probably some of the wisest parts of us, to be honest. And they’re going to feel irrational right now, honestly, Like, Cancer season is not a rational time. It’s when the emotions are designed to override the rational mind, to make something so tangibly clear to us, we can’t ignore it with the brain or override it. And it’s supposed to scramble the system just a little bit so that we can be more authentic. 

In Leo season, mission accomplished. On the scrambling, it has been a scramble, and I know that I’ve heard that from clients, I’ve heard that from other people. There’s just some crazy stuff. And I think everybody feels a little destabilized at the moment, at least here in the US I’ve been hearing that from a lot of people where I posted some things on Instagram and I got a lot of private messages from people just being like, yeah, I’m feeling all of that, too. I don’t know what to do. And I think, you know, you said something before we hit record where you were saying, what this stuff reminds me of is that this is what connects us to other people, that it isn’t all us. It isn’t all just personal. 

And I think, you know, we have Saturn and Neptune that are in the same gate. The Gate of Universal Love, which is about healing the bigger wounds that we have. I’ve talked about this in the Transit episodes before, but this is going to be a theme for a while. These two are going to be side by side for a bit. At least in the human design aspects. They are conjunct when they’re in that same gate. Our nodes were in this theme at the start of the year. There’s like, this is something that we are being called to see that we are not separate, that we are one. 

And now that we are in our feels and that we’re seeing things happen in the world, I think that we are being called to see that we are connected to other people, that this is bigger than just us and our story and our thing and our world and our business and whatever it is that we are experiencing. I think that’s one of the beautiful things about social media. I have lots of problems with social media, but I do think that when people share something that’s real and when they share something that’s true, other people feel seen and feel safe to share that truth too. I think that there’s a lot of gaming going on social media where there’s an agenda and that starts to muddy the water there. 

But I think those moments can poke through where we can draw ourselves a little bit closer to others in that way. But what are you seeing this month that you think is like, this is just a greater theme that when Christina and I were talking before we started this cancer aspect and just cancer season and all of this is the main theme. This is the highlight. Like, this is what we’re all going through right now. Even more so than the gates and all the things. But what do you have circled on the map on the calendar that you were like, I want to mention these things? 

Well, I will say historically, since I’ve been tracking this since 2018, okay. I’ve been tracking these first couple weeks of July and how it unravels into Leo season. Historically, these are times that we cannot force structure. This is a time to allow the tomato seeds on the dishes in the sink to sprout. If you’ve got a stack of laundry that you’re just not dealing with. If you’re feeling like laying in bed, if you’re feeling like you need more dream time, if you’re feeling like you just want to go into coping mechanisms, comfort eating, watching binging shows. This is actually the time with all of my clients, I actually suggest that July be the month where you take the pressure off as entrepreneurs and you create the most unstructured play as possible. 

And the message is in unstructured play, in the chaos of spreading everything out and creating that sacred mess, there are patterns that are allowed to emerge that would have never emerged within the structure. And so it might feel really uncomfortable at first to allow everything to unravel. But the unraveling has a way of bringing things together in a creative way that is completely novel, that’s never come together before, that can completely revolutionize your entire reality. Because especially this year, specifically, Uranus is moving into Gemini for a seven year kind of hurrah. And while it was in Taurus, Uranus had us helping us to understand what was absolutely mandatory for us to survive, what is absolutely sustainable. We had fluctuations in our wealth, fluctuations in our health, we had fluctuations in our belief in what’s secure in Society since 2018. 

I mean, you can think about all the things that have changed socially. Yeah. When it comes to what’s essential and sustainable. And now it’s moving into Gemini and in Gemini, that’s where cross pollination can happen. So the people who are allowing themselves to unravel their personal stories unravel. We’ve got the south node in Virgo. We were talking about that unravel this belief that you do everything all by yourself, that you are an island unto yourself, that you are a microstructure that can exist solely alone. So we’re unraveling that. We are unraveling our relationships that were dependent so we found inner security more secure than we’ve probably ever been. Even if we’re feeling a little emotionally unstable, we are more open to collaboration with other people’s ideas. 

And the more we release our attachment to structure in our daily lives, the more we can have more personally novel ideas that will cross pollinate with other people’s ideas. So it’s a really incredibly exciting time for solutions. Solutions that bring more than us into. 

The equation, but they can’t be planned. This sounds like there’s a lot of like trust in synchronicity that is being. 

Brought to us by Pluto in Aquarius, Making sure that the more that we vibrate at our own native authentic frequency, the more you will repel people who are not of that frequency and attract people who are. So they’re all conspiring to shake the sand and bring the like particles together so that they can create new compounds. I think we’re going to have scientific breakthroughs. We’re already having technological breakthroughs. Could you imagine if all the technological fields came Together with an idea of novelty to find solutions. 

You know what the new solution I want to slow down the technology because it’s moving so fast and let’s find some solutions for what we’re going to do with this new technology. And not from a sense of like this is where I want government, this is where I want leaders to be thinking, where do people fit in to this whole technological boom and change and world of AI and robots and you know, self driving cars and the whole thing like because what you’re talking about, because we’re into structure, the old maybe being stuck in our ways that we have to rattle the cage a little bit to say, well okay, but are we thinking about 10 years from now when a bunch of the jobs are gone and what do we do now? 

And I don’t think that we need the old tools and the old structures are not going to give us answer for the world that hasn’t really arrived yet but is totally on the horizon. And I think we know enough about it that we could start asking some really good questions. And that unfortunately we’re so distracted with the real insanity that’s happening in our world that we can’t have those good conversations because we’re preoccupied with just things falling apart. And how can we have a real conversation? 

The solution is in getting, just intensifying what you just said. So the more that you systemize, the more that you create structure from the old, the more that you distract, the greater the crisis builds under the surface. And as that crisis opens, the deep human need and vulnerability begins to be expressed. So you know that in a marriage. Let’s look at the structure of a marriage. Marriage is an old institution. It’s based on certain like milestones and principles that we all sort of recognize. Right. I don’t need to go over what that looks like. But you know that a marriage without the emotional vulnerable conversations grows cold and stale and systematic. It becomes two ships passing if there’s not the emotional component. And sometimes people will hold it in and hold it in. And then one day it ruptures. 

All of the emotions flood out. It could look like a volcanic eruption, it could look like crack crying. It could look like a breach in trust, it could look like a breach in values and vows. It’s a breach, let’s just say it’s a rupture. But that vulnerable terrain, when it’s all messy and we don’t know what is what and the entire future could change, that’s when the Truth can be found in the heart. And if people still love each other in that structure, if the love is still there, the true vulnerable need for the parties in the relationship can actually be expressed. And when that vulnerable need is deeply expressed and love is still there, repair can begin happening and dramatic change can happen. So that’s a micro cause of what can happen on a global scale as well. 

But while we’re distracting ourselves on our phones, laying in bed next to each other, we’re not having those conversations until the pain becomes so intense that we have no choice but to fall on our knees and say, I can’t do this anymore. That desire for something different is what actually changes things. And cancer season is falling on our knees and saying, I can’t do this anymore. In our jobs, in our parenting, in our careers, in our marriages, in our health, in whatever area we’ve been tolerating and tolerating and tolerating for so long. 

I think I’ve actually said those words, I can’t do this anymore. I think I’ve said those words like, I don’t want to do this anymore. This sucks. I don’t want to do this anymore. Maybe you have, too. And if you have, well, then, like Christina said, par for the course. Like, this is the moment that we’re in. But I do think, like, what you’re pointing to is that in those breaking points, in those breaking moments of real human honesty, like, that is usually what comes out of those breaking points. If you really still care to have the conversation and you’re not just like, I can’t do this anymore. Peace, which we see a lot of, then repair can happen, but conversation can happen, and then something new actually has the ability to bloom in that in its place. 

So, yeah, we’re being brought to our knees for sure. 

Yeah. There are a few key dates in July that I circled that I’m like. 

I have a couple, too. So what do you have? I’m always interested to see if we have the same ones. 

Yeah, so I do see. First off, July 4th is going to be a day that may stir up a lot of conversations, a lot of opinion sharing. Like, people might have a lot to say and they might be feeling a lot. So there may be a lot of just words in the world. And it’s a great time to take time to tell the people you love the most, the people you value the most, share the words with them. If you keep it close to home and you keep it honest and authentic and vulnerable, then these can Be really productive conversations. If these conversations become defensive, finger pointing, judgmental, there could be a lot of turmoil created from that, which will build to further dates in July. Do you see anything for that first part before I go on to the next? 

Well, the first part, I was just going to mention that the first gate that we’re in the sun gate is gate 39. It’s the gate of provocation. And I think it’s interesting you said that those first couple of weeks of July, just like, nothing can happen, like, no structure can be activated or used. We’re in the root from the first through, like the 13th. And the root center. And the root center is just pressure. It’s a pressure center and it is stress in its low frequency, in its high frequency. It’s fuel. But it’s messy. It doesn’t have structure yet. It’s pure, just like bursts of creativity. But creativity needs to settle. Creativity needs something to order it. Creativity. I’m experiencing that right now, like working on a creative project and just being like, I can’t get the structure down. I can’t. 

Like, I have all this creativity, but I feel like it’s got no place to go right now. Like, I don’t know where to put it, but that’s sort of what I see. And that first week, would you talk about, like, that difference between having an open, honest conversation where you’re sharing vulnerably and there’s like an attempt at an exchange versus finger pointing and defensiveness and, you know, pushing people away. It’s the gate of provocation and the 39th gate. It points to the emotional center. It connects to the most spiritual gate, arguably in the chart, gate 55. So then if you look at it from a channel perspective, what we’re talking about, it’s the fuel to provoke to a higher spirit. The low frequency is to provoke for the sake of provoking, to be defensive, to needle people to push. 

That’s the low frequency of it. I have this gate in my chart. It’s been a lesson for me. This is my Jupiter. And something that I’ve noticed, though, I can provoke people to a higher level of spirit when I’m in the energy and intention and spirit of that. So I felt that as you were saying that I was like, oh, it’s interesting that would be the point that you’re pointing out. And that’s absolutely the low frequency of that particular gait. So be on the lookout for that. This is a place for openness and to really notice. Like, am I doing this because am I doing this for the highest good? Is really a good question. For that first week. It might feel like you need to have a hard conversation. It might feel like you need to do something uncomfortable. 

But am I doing it for the highest good of everybody involved or am I doing this because I want to have a tough conversation and I want to be right? 

Yeah. And there’s going to be simulation of whatever that conversation comes to a head on the fourth and fifth. There’s going to be time after that where the higher perspective would be where we’re celebrating the repair. We’re celebrating the new vulnerability. We’re sharing and raising a glass and laughing and being joyful. But if it doesn’t go well, if we are still armoring our heart, this could be over consumption of alcohol. This could be falling into delusion patterns that protect you and buffer you from the truths that have shown up. It can cause you to drive into disassociation. So be mindful from the 6th to the 10th about the potential to disassociate from the truth of what’s surfaced. And know that there’s a potential always to get very real and honest and start bridging some repair. 

But if you find yourself just, you know, having to go to the park and lay under a tree by yourself, that’s not disassociation. That might be like managing your energy after a change. 

So integrating. One thing I wanted to call out in that second week is from the 7th through the 16th, we all will have. From the 7th to the 16th, we have Mars in gate 64 and the south node will be in gate 47. This will give everybody the channel of abstraction. And what that’s doing is that is going to create pressure, mental pressure. You might feel like you want to figure things out. And the lesson with this is to let go. Trying to figure it out, trying to resolve that mental pressure does not resolve the pressure, it makes it worse and it does it every single time. 

So that is such a core piece right there to recognize that if you start to feel that need and it’s so easy to get caught up in it because pressure is so uncomfortable and it makes the mind race. And only 30% of the world has a defined head most of the time. So everybody will have one for this like week long period or like whatever that is, 10 days, that period is going to make you uncomfortable. Most likely. When I have a defined head, I have it now and I notice that when I get that, it creates a racing mind. It creates a feeling like your thoughts are Just so powerful. And you want to make the pressure go away. And the way you want to make that pressure go away is to try to do something with those thoughts. 

And unfortunately, that’s not usually when it’s time to do it. There’s moments. So this is like. I think about this, like horseback riding. It’s like, this is where you’ve got to have soft rein hands on the reins. You can’t be holding on tight. You can’t be trying to guide that horse someplace strongly it will buck. You really need to be gentle and allow the wisdom, the questions. A lot of times it’s gonna be a lot of questions probably that come through, not a lot of answers, and you’re gonna want answers. And the other thing that might come from this is just in these placements, at least from the human design perspective. 

The way we look at it, just with it being Mars and Mercury, you might find that it’s people from your past that come up, that something that you thought was dead and buried shows up to rehash something, to make amends. I don’t know what it is, but just some sort of, like, ghost from the past comes back. Because that’s what this channel of abstraction does. It tries to make sense of the past, to say, oh, that’s why it happened. So you might find yourself thinking about things. You might find yourself like, I haven’t thought about that in years. I thought I had let that go. I thought I had really worked through that. But now here I am crying over my dad again, whatever it is. And then you might find that somehow that’s brought into your life through other people as well. 

Yes. And I’m so happy you brought that up because we have our Mercury retrograde starting on the 18th in Leo, and it will go until August 11th. So that period of time, it’s going to be retrograding through this sign of leo. And so it’s important to understand what LEO energy is actually utilized for. So if cancer energy opens us up to being humbly honest with ourselves about what’s painful and true, then LEO gives us an opportunity to create something new. So you have this week that you’re describing where you get to kind of drop into the things you’ve created in the past, the patterns you had in relationships from the past. You know, this could be a great time for taking accountability for the power you had to create the patterns that were so painful for. From previous experiences. 

It’s not bad to approach something from a space of a loyal heart. You know, if someone from the past shows up and you feel the love and the loyal heart. That’s actually a really good thing because that love for something from the past can actually humble us to take responsibility for the part of the process that we created, because we can see how we love them, and they’re not actually the villain or the narcissist or whatever that we projected onto them to protect us, that we could be virtuous and right. The South Node in Virgo is saying, you have not been virtuous and right your entire life. 

There have been many times when you didn’t know what you didn’t know, and you made serious errors on your side of the pattern that created a reverse experience so that you can have greater compassion for the things you didn’t know about. So this Mercury retrograde is about exploring how we created those patterns or rewriting how we move forward with what we create in the future and understanding that no matter what mess we make, it’s going to be a valuable human experience. That’s my mantra for the month of July. No matter what mess I’m making, it’s going to give me a valuable experience as a human. I’m not here to keep everything perfectly clean and tidy and perfect and tight and amazing. I’m here to have a human experience and be messy about it. 

And ultimately, those are the most fulfilling experiences that I come out of that. 

Will be an exercise for my Virgo. Yeah, I feel like that’s been, you know, my life lesson. Like that is the story of my life is learning that. That I’m creating this messy human experience and allow it to be messy and it doesn’t need to be perfect. And it’s all valuable and valid if I allow it to be. And if I find the lessons and the compassion and I grow from the experiences that I have, can I tell. 

You one tiny little anecdotal story that humbled the crap out of me? 

Sure. 

I have a lot of Libra placements, and so I like to appear very diplomatic when I’m co parenting, for instance. Right. So I used to be in a relationship with a cancer who was very emotional, very sensitive to energies, could really tell even when I couldn’t feel it, even when I was intellectualizing my own feelings. He could feel what I was feeling, and he could tell when I was being diplomatic. And my diplomacy and careful words actually caused him to not trust me because he could feel that I wasn’t being honest about how I felt. I was trying to be fair. I was trying to do the right thing. I had good reasons for holding my emotions, like for myself and not spilling them all over the place. But he perceived it as an incongruence, and it caused him to not trust me. 

And it caused a lot of rupture in our relationship, because when he didn’t trust me, he defended himself. And when he defended himself, he acted more unpredictable, which caused me to be even more diplomatic. And that’s a pattern that we experienced over and over. And so this month, I’m giving permission to all the very harmonious, diplomatic, careful, emotionally mature listeners that sharing a little bit of that messy emotional truth is actually trust building. And we are opening the heart to greater loyalty and love and trust. When we get into Leo season around the 22nd, and there’s a new moon on the 24th, that new moon is going to be pronounced a pronounced new beginning that releases the past creative patterns and opens us up to something very new and novel that we’ve never experienced before. 

Because of its relationship to Saturn and Neptune in Aries, because of its opposition to Pluto, there’s this really ripe moment where we get to bring all of the pieces together and in a creative new Moon. And I think astrologers are gonna be talking about it like crazy, how it’s like a once in a lifetime new moon. But every single day is a once in a lifetime opportunity. And the opportunity just seems to be a different. We don’t always like the opportunity that’s being given to us. And frankly, the opportunity we have leading up to that new Moon is the opportunity to be very messy, open, and vulnerable. And the opportunity we got on the 24th is to use all of the energy that is unbound by our permission slip to do to create something new. 

I always say we get to choose and we get to have the best intentions and we get to put a vision out there and everything, but we don’t get to decide how it comes to us. And that’s the part that I think throws us for a loop, is it’s like, I didn’t expect it to come like this. I didn’t know that wanting this thing or getting this thing was going to mean letting go of this other thing. And if you can meet all of these moments and these human experiences with grace and with openness and honesty, that’s where real growth and change, and this is why it is all once in a lifetime opportunities. We get them all the time. Just sometimes the energy is supporting certain types of growth, and sometimes it’s supporting something else. We take what we’re given in those moments. 

And if we make the most of it, then we can actually start to see real change. The only other thing that I wanted to bring up was we’re closing out the month. So from the 13th through the end of the month, we’re in the throat center. So once again, we’re closing out the throat center. This is like the last hurrah of like the action taking portion of like let’s do the thing, you know, we’re opening up LEO season with it. Leo is obviously a very outward sort of sign. It takes action, it shows up. And this is the throat center stuff that comes from the mind. And then we go into really what it means to be us and expressing ourselves and expressing who we are. And we have, you know, Mercury and the sun. 

We start off like we’re ending the month and then kicking off August with this conjunct between the sun and mercury in the 33rd gate. And the 33rd gate is such a funny one because it’s an action taking gate in the sense that it’s in the throat. So anything in the throat is about manifestation, about making things happen, about doing things. But the 33 and then the gate before it, the 31, these are about leadership and they just lead in different ways. The 31 is about influence and that’s the last week of the month. And then right before we switch over on the 30th, we go into the 33rd gate and that’s where we have that conjunct with Mercury. It’s retreat, which is such a funny word for something that has to do with action. It’s about learning the lessons. 

I feel like we’re being called at the end of the month, like this is a great month to me to do. Like, if you want to write a post, if you want to share something on substack, if you want to send it out to your newsletter or you just want to write it in your journal. But do this, do a reflection exercise at the end of this month. If you don’t do them regularly, take stock of what happened. This is probably, like we said, we’ve spent, you know, almost an hour going through like what a turbulent kind of month this might be emotionally. Really reflect on it at the end of the month. Sit down with yourself and reflect. I call it the postmortem gate, which is like a really ugly term for it. 

But it’s, you know, it’s that what worked, what didn’t and why, what did I feel this month? What was I being called to? Did I rise to it or Is there still more work for me to do in this area? And I’m going to continue. But that act of reflection, of really thinking before we speak of, like, that is very much what this is about. But it’s about, like, what stories need to be told, what experiences need to be shared, and can they be shared from a vulnerable place so that other people might learn it? I think there’s an opportunity for us. You know, from an entrepreneurial content perspective. It could be something that you share a reflection, or it can be just for you. 

But whatever it is, take that time, because I just see that as being a very strong moment at the end of the month that’s asking us to sit and reflect for a moment. Anything else you want to share before we let the lovely listeners go on with their day? 

Yeah. You know, I remember something I was going to share earlier, and as everyone that’s been listening knows, I’ve been with a new man since last October, and we’re now living together. And we had a discussion just a couple nights ago about how I still feel that a future version of me, a very old version of me that’s laying on her deathbed in between, like the worlds getting ready to release her attachment to this life and move into whatever next iteration she. She has been granted the ability to relive her life from a certain checkpoint. And I think I chose the eclipse in September to begin reliving my life. 

And even though I have the capacity to peer into the future and see how things will go, I have actively decided to just experience everything at face value as if it’s the most delicious thing I’ve ever tasted in my entire life. And I don’t want to rush through it. I don’t want to get to the next thing. I’m just relishing every single experience of my life right now because I’m already dying. I’m already on my way out, and I’m getting this gift to relive this part. And so no other time in the year is more apt for that type of energy than the month of July. The month of July says, gosh, this is so this could all be over in a blink. 

You could be on your deathbed right now and grateful to be reliving this one moment in every single detail, in slow, nuanced kisses in the kitchen and letting the music actually sink in and letting you taste everything like, this is what life is about and made for. And so if there’s any time that you could just not try to fast Forward is the month of July. Yeah. 

Really hold those moments. And it’s the little moments. I love that. Did you see the movie My Old Ass? Did you see that? It’s on Netflix. Oh, my gosh. 

They made me cry so hard. 

I cried through almost the whole thing because I was anticipating what was going to happen. Like, I kind of figured out. I’m like, oh, my God. Oh, my God, it’s going to be this. And you’re just, yeah. If you haven’t watched that movie. And this is a good one, because I do find that we’re all going to be on our feels. We’re all going to be feeling human. I tell this to my emotional authority clients all the time. If you’re emotional and you’re in, like, the emotional wave, listen to the saddest song that you have. Like, you were saying, create an altar. Like, allow the feeling. Don’t resist it. And watch a sad movie. So if you’re finding that you are in your feels, and I get that. I feel like I’m on the verge of tears, but it’s not coming. 

And I feel like I’m in between. And it’s like, oh, I gotta cry. It’s like, reminds me of when I was a teenager. You drank too much and you’re like, I must throw up now or I’m just gonna feel sick for, like, the next day. So if you need to cry, go watch the movie. It’s on Netflix. It’s called My Old Ass. It is funny, it’s entertaining, and it’s also so delightfully sad. But it’s like, the best cry. But that was what it was reminding me of. When you were telling your story, I was like, it’s like, my old ass. I think it is. 

It’s exactly like that. And I actually watched that early on in my relationship. 

So check out that movie. If you need to, like, cry it out. That is a great one. So thank you so much for being here. We’re going to wrap this up. This is a long one, but I hope that this gave you the tools to go forward with this month and to feel equipped for it. We don’t mean to scare you, but does this help you relax into maybe experiencing more joy? Trying to incorporate more play this month and also going into the feelings that are really there. This is a great month to journal and really get in touch with your feelings and tapping breath work? The tools that we use to actually exercise those emotions are going to be so important this month. Be honest with yourself and be gentle with yourself. So thank you so much for being here. 

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